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Old friend of mine called yesterday. We can’t be friends anymore. It was toxic. We had too many common interests, and it wasn’t healthy. I don’t necessarily even know if they considered me a friend to be honest sometimes. I wish them well, and the best, but when you change your life, and you want to completely get clean, you gotta wipe the slate. It sucks, It does. But sometimes you got to realize that was the only thing you have in common with them was the fact that you had toxic interests? Maybe trauma bonding?

I had to let go. I want them to do good. I’ve made it apparent I believe I wish to part ways. However sometimes they'll find ways reach out, and it feels like they don’t wish me well. They don’t want me to have peace. It's strange.

So, on that note I ask anyone out there this, it's like this, yes, I support this cause behind Beyond the Bottle, because I’ve literally died from it before, and wound up in a coma for weeks, and have devasted my family several times. I’ve lost family members because of overdose. I’ve lost relationships because of drug and alcohol use.

I lost a VERY close friend this year, a friend I cared a lot about, that my kids cared about. I can’t even barely bring myself to talk about it, because the last time I saw him we didn’t exactly end on good terms, because we were both drinking and I left without saying bye.

I do ask anyone out there this, if you see me out here, living healthy, looking happy, being sober, just leave me be. I’m not here to mess with anyone or bother anyone. I’m here to heal and help others. I’m here to help others not ruin their lives. I’m here to see this business through. I’m here to find peace. I DESERVE that. Everyone deserves that. Let me have that. Please and thank you.